12/17/98

I am seriously thinking of letting my natural hair color grow in. The only problem is I will then look my age. I am troubled by the thought. I am already struggling with mortality and age issues. Do I need to see the visible signs of decay when I look in the mirror? Is my vanity a foolish thing? All I know is some day no hair dye will be able to disguise the fact that I have grown old. For now, the illusion still works even in daylight, but only some of the time, and only (truthfully) to people my age. The genuinely young know I'm not their peer. Young at heart I may be, but I'm loath to give up my last magic trick.